is the number of days I have been a mother.
I don't know if that seems like a lot or a little.
I just went to check on my baby boy, and there he was fast asleep holding his blanket against his cheek- he is so sweet.
I feel like saying "he is such a good boy" is an understatement. I don't mean to brag, just try to convey how wonderful it is to have this little man in our lives.
He is so special to us, and even though he can't talk to us yet I feel like he understands how much we love him and he seems to know when I need a hug or a cuddle.
Almost every night when he goes to sleep I end up looking at pictures from the day he was born. I remember that night so well, sitting there just watching him sleep- he didn't make a peep and the nurses kept getting mad at me because I kept getting up and holding him and they wanted me to sleep- but I couldn't! I was mesmerized by this little person that had just arrived and completely and utterly in love with everything about him- he was perfect- and he was mine.
As he has gotten bigger I am amazed at how much personality he already has, and sometimes I get scared that I won't be able to teach him all that I so desperately want him to know and feel. I am SO grateful to have the help of our parents and especially my own Mother and most importantly my Heavenly Father's help.
there are so many talks from our church leaders about motherhood ( I often ready them when feeling the feelings stated above...) they are so inspiring whether you are a mother or a father or neither! 
{This One} is one of my favorites

"When we understand the magnitude of motherhood, it becomes clear why prophets have been so protective of woman’s most sacred role. While we tend to equate motherhood solely with maternity, in the Lord’s language, the word mother has layers of meaning. Of all the words they could have chosen to define her role and her essence, both God the Father and Adam called Eve “the mother of all living” —and they did so before she ever bore a child. Like Eve, our motherhood began before we were born. Just as worthy men were foreordained to hold the priesthood in mortality, righteous women were endowed premortally with the privilege of motherhood.  Motherhood is more than bearing children, though it is certainly that. It is the essence of who we are as women. It defines our very identity, our divine stature and nature, and the unique traits our Father gave us."

Here's a few recent pictures of the boy who calls me (well I guess one day will call me) mother :)

Happy (belated) Mother's Day!


Hallie said...

This one made me cry Amy! I feel the exact same way you do about being a mother...NOTHING better!

Stephanie Bengtson said...

You are such an amazing mother Amy! You made me almost cry as well!!